Figuring It Out

Proverbs

2008-01-19T19:36:00.001-08:00

I've been reading for the past few weeks in Proverbs during my devotional time. It makes me feel smart, or wise rather. Making wise choices is something I try to be intentional about and remembering Proverbs helps me do that. So I thought I'd share with you some of the verses that have caught my attention and have been reflecting on lately.

Proverbs 3: 1-6
My child, never forget the things I have taught you. Store my commands in your heart, for they will give you a long and satisfying life. Never let loyalty and kindness get away from you! Wear them like a necklace, write them deep within your heart. Then you will find favor with both God and people, and you will gain a good reputation. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your paths.

10:12 (b)
Love covers all offenses.

10:19
Don't talk too much, for it fosters sin. Be sensible and turn off the flow!

11: 2
Pride leads to disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.

11: 8
God rescues the godly from danger, but he lets the wicked fall into trouble.
I had a question mark by this one. I don't understand it. Yes, it's true I don't always understand the Bible.

11:17
Your own soul is nourished when you are kind, but you destroy yourself when you are cruel.

16:20 (b)
Those who trust the Lord will be happy.

16:24
Kind words are like honey - sweet to the soul and healthy for the body.

16:31
Gray hair is a crown of glory; it is gained by living a godly life.

17:3
Fire tests the purity of silver and gold, but the Lord tests the heart.

17: 9
Disregarding another person's faults preserves love; telling about them separates close friends.

19: 2
Zeal without knowledge is not good; a person who moves too quickly may go the wrong way.

19: 11
People with good sense restrain their anger; they earn esteem by overlooking wrongs.

19: 18
Discipline your children while there is hope. If you don't, you will ruin their lives.

19: 20
Get all the advice and instruction you can, and be wise the rest of your life.

20: 3
Avoiding a fight is a mark of honor; only fools insist on quarreling.

20: 5
Though good advice lies deep within a person's heart, the wise will draw it out.

I really like Proverbs. It makes me think about my life right now. I can also see in my Bible where I've underlined or highlighted when I've read these verses before and remember what I was thinking about my life back then.

Rob Bell, a pastor and author, writes and creates material that makes me think about life too. Not just for a second, but he raises ideas that stay with me. Next time, I want to post some of my thoughts about a few of his ideas.

Creation

2008-01-11T12:38:00.000-08:00

I started the last semester of my college career this week and it's got me thinking quite a bit about my life. I'll be honest, I'm a little scared. In less than four months my life is going to change, a lot. I've been preparing myself to graduate college my entire life and it is now upon me, I am living it right now. What's next? What will I be preparing myself for and working toward after I graduate? What lies ahead? I'm just letting you in on a few of my reflections as of late.

Most specifically this week, I've been thinking about creation. I saw the movie PS I love you, which was really sad but good. Most of the sappy love stuff hasn't stayed with me, but what did stay with me was a conversation the couple had when they met. The girl was in college and trying to figure out what she was going to do with her life and said something along the lines of each of us are to create something with our lives. We get a sense of satisfaction and fulfillment when we create something from within ourselves. It's a part of ourselves that we share with the rest of the world. That could be art, music, socks, anything.

Another creation idea from this week came up in my lighting class. Yes, I'm taking a lighting class. It's about stage lighting...or something, I'm not really sure just yet. Anyway, an article we read for class talked about how light isn't just a thing, it's not just a task for the designer but it has an element of livingness to it. It has energy and it breathes, it's alive. It is a living creation of the designer. This creation comes from within the designer and so it's not separate from them but it is part of who they are.

So I wonder, what am I creating with my life? What is it that I have to offer and share with the rest of the world? Were we created to create? Am I living into the person I was created to be? As a creation, how do I represent my Creator?

There are no easy answers to these questions, if any. And really, there's no smooth transition into a conclusion for this entry. Because there is no conclusion to these questions. I think I'll continue to wrestle with them for the rest of my life. I fully anticipate and fervently hope that the answers will continue to change throughout my life. We'll see...

Freedom

2007-05-29T19:55:00.000-07:00

I won't waste your time or mine with my excuses for not updating regularly so let's just get into the real stuff.

It was about 4:30am Friday night/Saturday morning when I was reflecting on some recent events and conversations. What was I doing up at that time you may ask? Jr. High Girls Lock In 2007. We rented several wholesome PG movies to entertain us, one of which was Flicka. It’s a movie about a teenage girl seeking her own identity and independence who finds herself connected to a young horse she names Flicka. The main character feels she can relate to the horse because the horse is untamable, like herself. Since Jr. high students are beginning their journey towards independence I thought somehow they could relate. The movie ends with the main character saying all she felt was free. In all of her searching what she found was freedom.

This made me start thinking of other movies with freedom as their theme – Braveheart, Amistad, Freedom Writers, The Little Mermaid, Bruce Almighty. I realized that we are not much different than the people in these movies, we desire freedom too. The same way that God has placed a desire for Himself in our hearts, we have an inherent desire for freedom. Interestingly enough, the freedom that we seek is also found in Him.

Romans 7:24- 25 “Oh, what a miserable person I am! Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.”

God offers us freedom from sin, freedom from death, and the freedom to choose Him or not. When we say yes to God, we say no to other things. We choose to sacrifice other freedoms for a greater and lasting freedom found in Him. In Jesus’ story, he chose to say yes to God. He gave up his own freedom, his high place in heaven, his comfort, his family, his friends, his entire life to allow the world to have freedom and abundant life.

Ultimately, our freedom is not found in our independence but in our dependence on God. Freedom is found in a relationship with Him and His people. We need each other.

...if none of that makes sense, just remember it came to me at 4:30 in the morning.

It's All Good

2007-02-07T13:09:00.000-08:00

So it's been a couple of weeks since my last post, I apologize for not keeping up with this the way I should but I'm working on it. I'll give you a few highlights since then, classes are still going pretty slow, except for ceramics, I work during and outside of class to finish pottery which I'm pretty terrible at, but I turned in my pot today and was actually proud of it instead of being embarrassed like last time. My movement class is fun, I'm learning how to sword fight and how to do yoga type stuff. Because classes are slow I have a lot more social time to hang out with my friends and I'm not stressed over homework or tests. I'm in a cute rental car for the week while my car is in the shop. I got nominated for Mercer's homecoming court. Wesley Week was an easy relaxed success filled with fun events. I'm in a bowling tournament this weekend, how random! We had a staff retreat last week, got to eat awesome food and do some staff bonding. My nephew is growing at an enormous rate and he's laughing too, as well as spitting up on me.

But the thing I'm most excited about is youth ministry stuff. A couple of weeks ago we had Inside Out when the Sr. high were on ski trip and even though we were missing several of our regular adults and volunteers, it went well nonetheless. It was a really good feeling, knowing that I'm capable even though a lot of times I feel inadequate. Not that I want to have youth without our adults and volunteers, because they definitely bring way more to our ministry than I ever could. This past Saturday we did Meals on Wheels and a Scavenger Hunt, that was by far the most fun I've had in quite a while...a good time was had by all, especially Beth's team that won the hunt. The Super Bowl Party was awesome, although my team lost. We had tons of students and visitors and adults. It was really relaxed and fun, and who doesn't love the Toilet Bowl Tournament?!

In the midst of all these activities the thing that stands out most in my mind over the past couple weeks is a story that Shane shared on Sunday morning. It was about the Jr. High guys that reached out to the homeless man and welcomed him to our church. This story has really left an impression on me because I've been trying to put myself in their place. What would I have done had a homeless man asked me where he could get a shower? I think I would have shrugged and walked off in fear. I wouldn't have talked to him or had a conversation, I wouldn't have invited him anywhere. Especially not in the 8th grade. The only person I was thinking about in 8th grade was me, and sometimes that mindset hasn't changed much. I am so proud of these guys. I am so proud just to know these guys. And I am blessed that I get to share in their lives. Can you imagine what kind of potential they have? They are making a huge impact as 8th graders, imagine what they will do in the next 5, 10, and 20 years. I look forward to seeing the men of God that they will become. So that story definitely made my eyes water up and I couldn't be more proud of them. I'm also proud and excited for Patrick and Carlos for placing so high in wrestling. Our guys are tearin' it up!

Needless to say, life is good!

Family

2007-01-21T19:50:00.000-08:00

Today I had the pleasure of sitting with my family at church. It has been a rarity since I was about 10. My parents and I don't go to the same church so I hardly ever get to worship with them. I am really glad that I got the chance to do that this morning. My parents and I are very different and I could even see in church today that we worship a lot different too. My first thoughts were negative of course. Like why are they so critical, why are they so spacey, why are they so talkative, why don't they pay attention, why do they ask so many questions, why don't they listen, etc, etc. But then after thinking about it...I am "they". I am a product of who they are. I am who I am because of who they are.

I learn to appreciate my family more and more everyday. I truly believe that God gave me to my parents because He knew that I would do my best by being raised by them. Am I saying that everybody has perfect parents and everyone grows up to be perfect? No, there are parents who neglect their kids, who abandon and abuse them. But I believe that God gives parents their children because the children have the most potential with those parents, whether the parents live up to their potential is their own choice. I don't know if that makes sense but I do know that God knew each and every one of us before we were in the womb. That he created every part of us. And I trust that He knows which child should go with which parent.

I love my family. I'm not saying I agree with everything they do and say or that it's always easy communicating with them or that we always get along perfectly. But I know that I would be much worse off without them. I am blessed to have the loving family that I do. I am blessed to have spent those moments in worship with my family this morning. I hope someday that my entire family will worship together in heaven, that we will get to spend eternity together with God.

As a side and ending note my dad made the comment that today he felt the most comfortable at my church than he ever had before. What a nice thought, people being comfortable in church...its something to work toward.

A Recap

2007-01-07T21:02:00.000-08:00

It's been a while, sorry about that. I've wanted to update tons of times, even started writing some entries and then got interrupted. Because it has been a long time I'll let you know what I've been up to since my last post. I took finals, they weren't too bad. Just one written test and four papers...could have been worse. My grades were pretty good, and I'm glad to be done with that semester. It's weird though to think that I only have 3 more semesters until I graduate from college, makes me feel kind of old.

The day after finals was over I started a seasonal job at the mall...personalizing ornaments. Yeah, totally not my thing but as always I need more money. And by far the best part was the oh so stylish bright red apron that I got to wear as my uniform in which I had to wear in front of thousands of people while running through the mall on my 15 minute break for dinner. As weird as it sounds, I'm still glad I did it though.

Then Christmas was amazing, I got to spend time with tons of people that I care about and it was highly enjoyable...I also got to eat A LOT. I got exactly what I wanted without telling anybody what it was, which is a huge blessing!!! My parents are paying my tuition this semester...I won't have to worry about money for 7 months, it's amazing. I almost started crying when they told me. God takes care of me so much more than I ever deserve.

A definite highlight since my last post is that I went to Passion 07. It's a Christian conference for college students. It was unbelievable, there were 25,000 college students there...I've never seen so many people before. It was just crazy! Also, my boy David Crowder was one of the worship leaders along with Chris Tomlin, Charlie Hall, Matt Redman, you know the crew. I got to hear Beth Moore, Francis Chan, Louie Giglio, and John Piper speak as they gave great information and encouragement to all of us.

Which brings me up to this weekend, Friday I went wedding dress shopping with my best friend - no I'm not getting married, she is. She picked out a beautiful dress that is absolutely perfect for her. And I think I know what I'll be wearing as her maid of honor and I actually like it. Then I went to a Thrashers game, that's hockey by the way. They lost but it was super fun because I had never been to one before. Then Saturday I crushed the Jr. High in bowling as always! It was so much fun getting to see everybody again, after not being together for several weeks. I start to have withdrawals when we don't meet for so long. Then youth tonight was great, got to see everybody again, and I got to catch up with some students that I haven't seen in a while.

Overall it was a crazy busy month in the midst of a crazy busy year. But I definitely like it that way. As mentioned earlier, I went to Passion and I am so glad that is how I started my year off. It was so refreshing to go to. I really felt like God poured a lot into me, it was like information overload but it was so much of what I need. Sometimes when I feel like I want to learn more that there's not a place for me to go to for that. It can be really discouraging. But I felt totally different this past week at Passion. I was with my peers and they understand what I'm going through and how I feel because they're going through it too. And the people that were leading us had those things in mind as they led. What they did was purposeful and intentional to reach us where we are. I didn't have to do anything and it was like truth and knowledge and wisdom were just there waiting for me. I didn't have any responisbilities it was just freely given. It was nice to receive so much.

That seems to be a theme in my life that God gives me so much...so much of Himself, so many relationships, so many experiences, so many gifts and provision, so much knowledge. I never go in need, I never starve, I've never been homeless, somehow things always work out. Because of that I am slowly learning to trust God more and me less. I realize a little more everyday how much I need God to be in control of my life because when I try to do it on my own it just doesn't work. When God is in control of my life not only does it work, but it flourishes. I am more blessed than I could have ever imagined. And so my prayer is more of Him and less of me.

Rest

2006-12-04T22:12:00.001-08:00

I sit here, at 1:30 in the morning, just finishing up some studying. I have finals next week and I'm already feeling exhausted and tired. That's a scary feeling, going into finals and knowing that I'm tired. I'm feeling unsure if I'll be able to give my final papers, projects and exams all I've got because I don't know if I'll be able to perform at my best. Don't get me wrong, I'm going to try my hardest but I know going into it that it's going to be difficult the next 2 weeks and I am so looking forward to a rest when it's over.

Today, I had a moment of rest and it was beautiful. A moment before our staff meeting that we rested in God. Nobody was talking or sharing or praying out loud yet but we were resting in God's presence and it was extremely refreshing. It got me through the rest of my day, evening, night and it got me here, now. One of my favorite passages in the Bible talks about rest.

Matthew 11:28-30
"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me-watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

Doesn't that sound nice? Resting with God. Not being lazy, not neglecting your work, but living right beside God, learning, working and resting all in Him. I forget this, it's one of my favorite passages and I forget this. I wake up and it's all go, go, go from there...typically because I wake up late and am rushing to get to class on time. Then I'm in a hurry to get to lunch, then a hurry to get to work, then a hurry to dinner or a research group meeting or this or that. But today, I got to spend a moment in rest and it was perfect. I think I may need to make resting a part of my regular devotional time. I usually pray, read, study, meditate on something...but rest will be an interesting new habit for my devotionals. I'm really looking forward to it and hopefully it will flood into the rest of my life and become an all the time habit of resting in God.

It's About Time

2006-11-29T20:57:00.000-08:00

Ecclesiastes 13: 1-3
"There is a time for everything,
a season for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to rebuild.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to lose.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak up.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.
What do people really get for all their hard work? I have thought about this in connection with the various kinds of work God has given people to do. God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God's work from beginning to end. So I concluded that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to enjoy themselves as long as they can. And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God."

I read this a couple of days ago in my quiet time and I love it. I think I love it for different reasons. One is because it lets me know that whatever is happening in my life, it's about time for it. There's a time for me to study, there's a time for me to work, there's a time for me to be with friends, there's a time for me to be with family...for every activity that I want to be a part of, there's a time for it. Then there are activities that I don't want to be a part of, a time to grieve, a time to turn away, a time to cry.

So this passage can be somewhat convicting, even though I may not want to take part in these times, I need to...it can be good for me. Something else convicting about this passage....a time to speak up! That's a tough one for me...but I know that God has called me into youth ministry and placed me in a position of leadership and authority and I should speak up...sometimes though I'm unsure and I question myself like, what if I say the wrong thing, what if it doesn't come out right, what if they think I'm talking about God just because I work at a church? But it is reassuring to read, "God has made everything beautiful for its own time", when I'm feeling like I can't do it, or I'm not good enough, or I don't know enough. Here He reminds me not to worry, that He'll make it beautiful. Yeah, I need to speak up for Jesus more and tell my stories and His stories.

And my favorite part of this passage are the last two sentences, which you should read over again. These words of encouragement leave me joyful and lighthearted.

My List

2006-11-23T22:02:00.000-08:00

Let me begin this entry letting you know about my Thanksgiving break, I was sick the whole time and basically slept the entire week. If I tried to do pretty much anything I would get exhausted really fast and have to sleep more so that's why a lot of my list of the things I'm thankful for has to do with health issues. So I start my list with being thankful for usually being healthy. I'm also recently thankful for Dayquill and Nyquill, they have been a huge help the past couple of days. Some other things I'm thankful for are my family, I think I grow more and more grateful for them everyday. There was a time when I didn't feel that way at all, I couldn't stand being around them and I felt like I didn't fit with them because we're all so different. My mindset has changed a lot about my family and I'm so glad that is has, God has really blessed me with a loving family. I'm thankful for my friends and what a positive influence they are on my life. I'm thankful for my church and all the experiences I've had at Forest Hills. From being a student in the youth ministry to now being one of its leaders has been almost unbelievable, it's hard to grasp how it all has happened. I feel so small and its hard to believe that I'm a part of something so big. I'm thankful for my experiences at Mercer, I really do believe that they are worth all the time, effort, studying, and money that I'm putting into it.

Those are the big ones but I'm also thankful for the small things like sunsets, the view from my apartment, text messages, space heaters, when class is cancelled, chapstick, road trips, when students ask me funny questions, lunch drawing, good and meaningful conversations, prayer, sleeping in late, my Taylor guitar, good food, hearing your favorite song, laughing so hard it hurts, compliments, getting back good grades, dancing, flag football, going to the beach, inspirational movies...I mean the list goes on and on of all the things I have to be thankful for. Oh yeah, I can't forget the whipped cream that I mentioned in my earlier post! If we really sit back and think about all the things that God has placed in our lives, it is astounding. And the absolute best part to me is that Jesus shares in these things with us. When I'm happy he's happy when I'm laughing he's laughing and even when we weep, Jesus weeps with us. We are never left to live this life alone, we are never abandoned. We always have someone to share with in our abundant lives. Just thinking about that makes me smile and adds more to my neverending list.

Whipped Cream

2006-11-20T10:23:00.000-08:00

Have you ever noticed how whipped cream makes food taste better? Well, I did this weekend as I had the opportunity to eat the oh so delicious camp food at Epworth By the Sea. As we all know, camp food is not a delicacy, it'll get you by but you definitely don't crave it or even like it. Anyway, I went to Epworth to lead a workshop for middle schoolers. It was a pretty cool experience, I got to see and talk to a lot of people I don't get to hang around much. I got to meet a lot of middle schoolers from all over Georgia and really just have a fun and relaxing weekend in St. Simons. I definitely missed all of our middle school students though, it would have been even better with them there.
But one night at dinner I decided to try some banana pudding. I had just woken up from a nap and still in that half asleep mode so I was just kinda staring at my food and not eating too much. And then I remembered I had gotten that banana pudding, now I don't like bananas but I love banana pudding...don't really know why or how that works, but I like it. Well I dive into the beloved banana pudding that ends up with the texture of...glue with huge banana chunks in it, it was way too thick and sticky and just gross. But they gave you a little scoop of whipped cream on top of it so I mixed it all in together and it ended up being a decent banana pudding. Seriously, that banana pudding made my entire meal. Actually it wasn't even the banana pudding, it was the whipped cream on top. For some reason that whipped cream really made an impression on me, I've never really considered myself to be a massive food lover or anything but this whipped cream was a big deal. It made me think that whipped cream really does make everything taste better. Think about all the desserts that you've had, and how whipped cream is on top of pretty much all of them...and its amazing, it totally makes it better. Plus, desserts are the best part of the meal anyway. I gained 10 pounds my freshman year of college because of the desserts in Mercer's dining hall, it was awesome!
Anyway, so I got to thinking about this whipped cream and how thankful I was for it because it made my dinner better and all my desserts are better because of it. Then I started thinking that's how God can be. He makes everything better in my life. God brings love and joy and blessings into my life that make a huge difference in who I am. God makes my relationships better, he makes my work ethic stronger, he softens me and makes me a nicer person to be around, he takes care of me and my needs, and my attitude is a positive one because I can see God moving in my life and in the world around me. Really, everything in my life is better because of who God is. And I am so grateful for that. I think for my next entry I may make a list of the things in my life that I'm grateful for...and one of them will be whipped cream...

Fulfilled

2006-11-14T20:20:00.000-08:00

Since last night I've had an amazing feeling of fulfillment...and I like it! I think what brought it on was a visit to my sister, brother-in-law, neice and new nephew Ryan that I mentioned earlier. It started off a little rocky because my neice Riley hasn't slept in about 3 days because of all the commotion of being at the hospital with the new baby and not being in her normal routine. When Riley doesn't get enough sleep she starts to act a little crazy, like running in circles, screaming, rolling on the floor, random bursts of crying, and temper tantrums...which is totally normal for a 3 year old. Anyway, her craziness started up last night while I was there...and I never really know what to do when she starts acting up so I just sat there and kinda laughed at her. Riley was stressing out my sister and brother-in-law and they had to fuss at her and then spank her to get her to calm down and finally in the bed. As my sister was getting ready to go to bed too I was able to spend some time with my nephew Ryan, who is now 2 and a half days old. It was the first time I really got to hold him and look at him and just be with him.

While I was holding him and he was slowly falling asleep I could hear his breathing patterns change. Listening to him breathe was so cool because it became rhythmic when he finally fell asleep. Breath makes me think of life, I probably relate the two because of different instances in the Bible. So I started thinking about life, and how from 2 days ago my family's life will never be the same. I took a moment to kinda step outside of that place and imagine, I thought about how small Ryan was and how small I felt right then, how small our lives are but how big his impact has already been, I imagined him growing up and all the fun things we'll do together, I thought about my sister and her husband and how they will be changed, I thought about what it would be like one day if I ever have a baby and what it will be like to hold it, I felt consumed in my thoughts of how precious life is. It was a great moment spent with Ryan and with God. I love that I get to share my life with them both. I think these moments are part of what makes life precious and these moments are the ones I will remember and cherish. From that experience last night I have just had an overwhelming sense of satisfaction with my life. I am so blessed. This feeling is so big it's hard to explain, but I think the word that I've found to best describe it is fulfilled.

And today was a great day too, I've been catching up on a lot of sleep that I missed this weekend, classes went well, I got some good test grades back, I learned how to kayak, went to a good lecture for extra credit, and made it to Wesley Foundation. After Wesley Foundation I had an amazing conversation with a friend of mine that's on the Leadership Team. We were able to share a lot of things going on in our lives right now, the good things and the tough things, and then we prayed together. It was nice, I love getting to know people better and building relationships. Like I said, I am so very blessed. And I'm glad to have this feeling of fulfillment and it's all thanks to Jesus for making me whole.

Figuring It Out

2006-11-10T12:36:00.000-08:00

Well I titled this "figuring it out" because thats me right now...just trying to figure things out. First, this blog...not really sure how it works, or what its going to end up looking like or being. But thanks for stopping in and checking it out! Right now, I'm thinking this blog will just be me sharing some things that have been on my mind and how I feel about a few things. I guess the biggest thing I'm trying to figure out is what I'm going to do after I graduate. I know I've got a year and a half to figure it out and there are more immediate things I've got to deal with, but this one issue has been an underlying question for quite some time. Luckily, I've got several options, it's not like I've got no where to go and nothing to do...its quite the opposite! I've got so much that I want to do, and experience and learn and to see. I just don't know when or how these things will fall into place.

And the tough part about whatever my decision will be, is that it will effect more people than just me. Particularly my family and my church family. My family has taken a few hard hits over the past couple of years and I want to be here for them and support them as much as possible. (by the way, as of yesterday I have a new nephew!! His name is Ryan and he's perfect!) Also, my church family has been such a blessing in my life that it would be hard to ever leave such amazing and loving people. SO, here I am with lots of questions. Even though I'm really unsure of what my future holds, I take so much comfort in knowing that God is in control and he knows his plans for me and they are for a prosperous and abundant life. And he's given me so much encouragement in his word, like don't worry about anything, pray always, rest in Him, rejoice! Basically, God lets me know everyday that he cares about me, he knows my needs better than I do. Knowing that God is my provider definitely helps me out when I'm on the brink of an anxiety attack thinking about all these things! Being in a relationship with Him is by far the thing I am most grateful for, I have NO idea who I would be, where I would be or what I would be doing otherwise, because God has shaped so much of my life. My prayer is that the decisions that I do make reflect and glorify God and that my desires are the same desires that God has for my life.

Well, this looks like a good stopping point until next time. Again, thanks for checking out this blog! Have a great week!